I’m holed up for now…

img_4865I got off work and came back to the house and the house seemed deserted… the oven was on, but nothing was cooking… the gallon of milk left out on the counter and not a soul to be found.

I grabbed some water and headed up to my room.  I then flipped the mattress up and lodged it so no one can get in without some real effort.  I’ll be here while I figure out my plan…

UPDATE:  Still here and hanging out… no one has tried to come in or has knocked or anything… I’m about to do my last shot and it’s huge.  Then head out for a counseling appointment… that should be interesting.

Goodnight, The Party Is Over

The end of my run is very near… I’ve already run out of excuses or reasons to be using… Some sort of feeling that I don’t want to feel, or memory that haunts me. No, those were flimsy at best and it’s time I stop thinking and acting as if I have no responsibility to anyone.
Of course this is being prompted by someone else and it’s not the choice I’d make for myself. No… I’ve been given the final ultimatum and have to be out of the house, today, by 9:00 AM. We’ll see how that goes as I have no intention of moving out… I’d rather be done with using than suffer homelessness or at best, couch surfing. I’ll come back after work this morning and lay low…